I wanted to talk about a big topic linked to my diagnosis, which is faith. I went through a lot of different stages and it is interesting to see how my circumstances changed my views and beliefs. In order to understand my own evolution, I have to go to the beginning. I was born into … Continue reading Faith


How far can doctors go and who is ultimately making decisions?

An interesting thing happened at my consultation yesterday following my recent MRI scan. The consultant neurosurgeon and the Neuro-oncology Specialist Nurse had these martyred expressions on their faces. They said that my recent scan hasn’t shown significant change but they discussed my case at their MDT meeting and they believe that I should have a … Continue reading How far can doctors go and who is ultimately making decisions?

Being at a crossroads

You know that feeling when you have to make an important decision in your life or make a change and you are just really confused and don’t know what to do? That’s exactly where I am right now, and it sucks. The question that I get quite often is whether I’ve undergone any treatments. My … Continue reading Being at a crossroads

Why I still write and what have I learnt a year on …

I started this blog more than a year ago with just a selfish intention. I didn’t really care about the reaction this would get or who would read it. I mainly did it for my own sake. I opened up to the world but even more importantly to myself. A lot has changed since I … Continue reading Why I still write and what have I learnt a year on …

Scanxiety is real

I’m very lucky. I only have my MRI once a year, which means I don’t usually have to think about it for most of the 10 months. But then, the next date starts approaching and generally two months prior the scan, the thoughts begin to eat me inside again. My annual MRI is next week … Continue reading Scanxiety is real

My reaction to an article defending antidepressants

I just wanted to write a quick reaction to a recent article in the Guardian about antidepressants, as this is something relevant to what I have been blogging about and still perceived as a controversial topic. The article titled ‘Antidepressants work, so why do we shame people for taking them?’ talks about the stigma attached … Continue reading My reaction to an article defending antidepressants

My Annual MRI Scan

I had my annual MRI yesterday. And there were many firsts. First time in the UK – Queen Elizabeth Hospital, Birmingham (scans also examined at JR Oxford University Hospital) First time that I was given contrast dye through cannula (this information is purely for the MRI geeks) First time after a couple of years that … Continue reading My Annual MRI Scan


After returning from the hospital we agreed with my parents that it would be best if I returned to uni and continued with my life as normal as possible. At that time it was unclear whether my tumour was malignant and I needed further tests and close observation. I was so grateful for their approach. … Continue reading Thereafter

My Diagnosis Part 2

My first MRI will always remain engraved on my mind… ... because it was just so casual. I wasn’t really worried or nervous. I remember my mom warning me that it might feel claustrophobic. But I actually did not mind, on the contrary, I found the sounds of the MRI machine quite intriguing. I recall … Continue reading My Diagnosis Part 2